Who Are You? | Having the Guts to Tell Your Story

Who Are You? | Having the Guts to Tell Your Story

I started meeting with some younger writers about three weeks ago. (And yes, younger refers to their ages not their writing abilities.) We’re getting together to share what we’re writing, help each other with writing problems, and encourage one another. Sounds simple enough, right?

Sure, if you don’t mind being vulnerable and turning yourself inside out for the world to see. Readers who have never written something intended for an audience beyond an English teacher may not have experienced the odd combination of terror and excitement that comes when you first read your own work to people you don’t know well. I imagine, however, that most can identify with this sentiment pulled from my About Page:

Sometimes it feels like our story isn’t worth sharing. It’s not as perfect, polished, or awe-inspiring as the person next door…we feel like our lives are just a trickle in the grand scheme of life.

Have you ever compared yourself and felt that way? I do this more often that I like to admit, but now, whenever those feelings rear up inside me, I remind myself how ugly it is when my eyes roll back into my head and stare at myself rather than looking outward as they should. It may seem that keeping focused on others means we shouldn’t talk about ourselves, but that can’t be the answer. We’d become a planet of mutes, which is difficult to imagine. And what about exhibitionism, tattle telling, slander, gossip, soap operas, and the like? We all know people who have no filter or can’t stop talking about themselves or use story as a weapon to hurt others. Do I really want to encourage that kind of behavior? The answer is, of course, no. So what am I saying?

Have the guts to own who you are and know your story. Be ready to share your story* when it can redeem the moment and encourage others.

I’m working on owning my story. I still stumble over my words when I am put on the spot and must reveal I’m a writer. On the other hand, I’m becoming less afraid to share other parts of my story—scenes and chapters that in the past were too painful to even think about much less verbalize. Think about your life. When have you experienced pain, failure, or embarrassment? Now, think again. When have you experienced good, beauty, and redemption? Think on those things. Share them when prompted. What’s your story?   *When I say “story,” I don’t mean that you tell the 15-volume, one-million-word version every time you share it. In life, abridged versions are usually desirable.

Photo Credit: L. Yost

A Picture’s Worth 1000 Words But May Hide 10,000 More

A Picture’s Worth 1000 Words But May Hide 10,000 More

If your house caught fire, your loved ones (including pets) were safe, and you had time to save one thing, what would it be?

Before off-site digital storage existed, photographs would have been the top answer for many because they are irreplaceable. We can’t go back in time and capture those moments again.

And yet, within a generation or two, many of those priceless images become worthless and meaningless. Printed photographs find their way into flea market bins anonymous and mute regarding their history. Their unclaimed digital cousins may simply be erased or eventually released onto public domain sites where they will become meme fodder for coming generations. How can something priceless become worthless in such a short time?

Family photos are priceless to us because they are story triggers, no matter their aesthetic quality. They help us remember who we are, where we started, and how far we’ve come. No matter how well a photograph is composed, however, it is unable to speak beyond its proverbial one thousand words. We need words written, spoken, or acted out in relationship to know the full story behind the image. A picture detached from its story becomes meaningless to all but those rare, curious souls compelled to solve the mysteries the image is incapable of revealing on its own.

So where are all of these thoughts coming from? This week, I’m excited to say I’ve taken on a new writing project. I’m helping my dad write down his stories with the goal of turning them into a memoir that can be shared.

Spending so much time delving into my past and the past beyond my past has been a bit like taking a vacation from the present. It’s not where I want to live long-term, but it has been enjoyable to revisit the familiar, best-loved family stories and to hear new stories that my dad has never told me before. It has been an exercise in remembering and discovering the deeper stories behind my mind’s “pictures” of our family’s history. I’ve gotten to know my parents better, and it has been both humbling and instructive to look back at our journeys so far.

I’d like to encourage you to take some time this week to consider which stories in your life help you to remember who you are, where you’ve been, and where you’re going. Take time to share your stories and listen to others’ stories so we can  remember our lives are not meaningless. Focus on the ones that reveal the priceless truths and mysteries behind the image you present to the world. Though we, like our photographs, may be forgotten, let us not allow the important stories that reveal life’s truths end up forgotten on a flea market table.

A picture may be worth 1000 words, but its story may be worth 10,000 more.

Photo: From my family’s photo archives.

Blindsided by the Flotsam of Life

Blindsided by the Flotsam of Life

Lately, every time I turn around it seems someone I know is experiencing a major challenge in life. Some are fighting life-threatening illnesses or the loss of loved ones and others are facing major life transitions. The rest of us who are not currently at the battle front are having to search our hearts and souls as the world seems especially chaotic as of late, and the constant change is forcing us to confront our core values, beliefs, and ability to show love and grace without losing our integrity. Whether we know it or not, we’re all experiencing loss in one way or another.

The short article that follows is one I originally wrote for a publication targeted at Third Culture Kids (TCKs), but I never submitted it. One characteristic of TCKs is that they often experience loss at a higher rate than normal because of their family’s nomadic lifestyle. But no matter our upbringing, we all experience loss. I hope that you find these thoughts helpful and even hopeful, wherever you may find yourself on the journey today. 


May sunshine poured onto the rural church, and people spilled out and around it—not because they were leaving but because they couldn’t get in. An unexpected death had brought us together that day; my college suitemate had lost her father. The call had come on one of the last days of the semester, and my other suitemates and I made the journey to support our friend at the funeral.

We found ourselves unable to get into the sanctuary, so we tucked ourselves away on an out-of-the-way staircase along with other mourners. Even as loved ones exhaled their grief, the spring breeze breathed back bits and pieces of the loving goodbyes going on in the heart of the church.

I could not see what was happening, and I could not hear much. I had only met my suitemate’s father once or twice in passing. Physically and emotionally, I was disconnected from the goings on, so I was unprepared for a wave a grief that made me weep during the service. Later, when my suitemate came and found us, it happened again. I felt weak. I wanted to be the one comforting her, not the other way around. But she pointed out that her father’s death still hadn’t sunk in for her, and it hadn’t been that long since the death of my younger brother. Maybe I was still grieving that.

She was right. I had not fully grieved my brother’s death, but I would come to the realization many years later that even if my brother’s death were the taproot of that outpouring of grief, hundreds of secondary roots contributed as well. I just did not know it at the time.

Though my parents are missionaries, my experience was different from many Missionary Kids (MKs). My parents’ roles as consultants and trainers kept us on the move throughout my elementary years in which I attended nine schools and visited fifteen countries. For the remainder of my school years, we were based in the United States. So when I compared myself to other MKs who spent most of their lives in one country with occasional trips back to the States, I came to the conclusion that I was not really an MK in the classical sense.

Throughout high school and college, I chose to try and blend in with the monocultural majority, avoiding the subject of my upbringing with all but my closest friends. As a young adult, I began to see how rich my childhood had been, and I chose to focus on the opportunities that my parents had given me. It would take most of a decade and a bout of major depression for me to fully accept that I was a Third Culture Kid and to understand just how much loss I had experienced in my early years.

When I was working through depression in my early 30s, a counselor who worked primarily with TCK’s recommended that I make a list of all of my losses—not just deaths, but the loss of homes, friends, experiences, and possessions. The list was long, and I felt guilty making it. Yet, there was also a sense of release.

Naming the losses helped me continue the process of grieving that I had subconsciously been going through all along. I began to understand why movies about the search for home fascinated me, and why the funeral of someone I didn’t know made me weep. I began to understand why I carried around a box of letters from my childhood friends, even if I never read them.

When we initially face a loss, shock allows us to pack our bags, say our goodbyes, and get on with the necessities of life. At some point, however, we have to give ourselves the time and place to grieve. Otherwise, when losses accumulate unexamined and unacknowledged, the pent up grief will catch us unaware, and we cannot understand why we are grieving a grief that was not ours to grieve. But if we take a peek at the flotsam left behind after the force of the flood, we see so many leavings and losings have been dislodged by the seemingly unrelated event.

It can seem that intentionally focusing on losses is an exercise in complaint or pessimism and will increase the pain. But like a dammed up river that has swollen past its capacity, grieving can be a flood gate that releases the feelings that accompany any loss and lets them mingle and find their place within the river of life rather than being a flash flood that drowns us.